Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Blog 2 addendum

After reading my first blog about scary phone calls, I wanted to add that, after sending the ceo [who I was nervous about contacting] an email with my song, he personally got back to me which was amazing. so cool that he was familiar with me and my work and said he would pass my info and song onto to person who could actually help: the creative director of the company I want to get my music to. Funny how as we get a bit older, we become more afraid of doing things. At least for me I've found if I don't get an immediate or good reaction, I retreat, go back in the shell and come out again when it seems safe or I get rehyped up on whatever it is I want to achieve-typical cancer the crab behavior and probably normal for anyone who's feeling rejected. When I was in my teens, I had pictures of an interesting recording artist named Leon Russell, keyboardist from Oklahoma that I adored plastered all over my bedroom walls. I told my mother in no uncertain terms: "One day I'm going to sing with him". She just said, "yeah, ok, right" and darned if i didn't end up in his band a few years later. I think the lesson is, you can get what you really want if you just focus on it and set your mind to it, PERIOD!!!! I'm living proof, and that's also happened to me with some other things which I'll talk about in a later blog. I think the most important thing is to KNOW EXACTLY WHAT IT IS YOU WANT!! Without that, you can flounder around for eternity. It's all about FOCUS, something that I am becoming very conscious of. So, excuse me while I get my "focus on"....

mwah!! xoxoxo

Marcella Detroit's Blog #2

So, tired and wasted and I don't even drink! But I am a night owl and can stay up longer than most without medication. That's a good and a bad thing really. Made a few more scary phone calls and am getting some results which is good. It's not as scary as I thought and what the heck, you're a long time dead so you might as well freakin' go for it. Got a big week ahead of me, photos to be done, music to be made and things to learn, learn, learn! So, that's it for now, I'm off to seize the day.

Love, always;

Marcy xoxo

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Scary Phone Calls

IT's today. yesterday, I created a whole plan with goals and what I wanted to achieve. One of my main goals was to contact an adverstising agency to listen to a song of mine that I think could be great for a certain product. So, this morning, I found myself dreading making the "phone call". I thought up every excuse not to, "waaah, I can't do it, why would they want to talk to me, I need someone to help me" and I realized what a big baby voice that is inside of me. So, I pulled up my bootstraps so tight they gave me a huge wedgie and made the first call, just trying to find the ceo of the company. The girl on the end of the phone in nyc was very nice and when I asked if he had an office there, she said, "he certainly does!" with enthusiasm. Wow, so then I asked if I could be connected to his office and she said, "Of course!" with equal enthusiasm. Then, his office secretary answered the phone and I was petrified, I froze for a second and really, truly, honestly just wanted to hang up!!! but, i didn't......I explained who I was briefly and said I had a wonderful creative idea for one of his clients and she gave me his freakin' email address. I was shocked and at the same time very proud of myself that I had the nerve or ["noive" as the lion in the wizard of oz would have said] to do it. Ok, you might say, "oh, chances are, he won't get back to you anyway" [you're saying this to me in a really nasal, know-it-all voice; i have one of those voices in my head too, so i know how it sounds, thank you very much!]. That may be true. But at least, I did it. And I've been wanting to do it for quite some time, since April, this has been my idea and as we all know, the only way to get a job done is to do it yourself.
So, it's a "feel the fear and do it anyway" kind of day, i mean, year, i mean life. hopefully it will get easier. at least i tried and i won't have died thinking, "if only i would have, blah, blah blah".....
oh, gotta go and make some more phone calls...ciao for now...
lots of love;

m xo